— my thoughts on a cafe napkin, this morning (via sandflies)
I met a person who challenged the part of me which likes to shrink and create negative space as if my non-existence were more beautiful. I met someone who made me want to expand because the space I take up is lucky to have me, and I feel again a sense of weight: solid, present, resolute and deserving, you uncurled the anxious knots and let the ropes fall, coiling onto the dark surfaces I now know how to stand upon.
"why aren’t you drinking?"
"because when i drink i become overwhelmingly unhappy with myself halfway through the night""oh y’know saving money"